“May I have this dance?” reaching out his hand to me, I trembled with a nervous excitement. Dad had helped me to learn the few steps necessary. I never really imagined anyone would come and actually ask me. Stuttering my acceptance I reached for his hand rising as if I had lead feet I found myself jerking towards the dance floor. Gracefully he returned me to my seat, thanking me for the dance and moving on to the next girl. Excited from completing a task well practiced I was surprised to see how I felt. Invigorated, twinkling, elated I marveled at the complexity of emotions. The desire to continue to twirl was so overpowering. Concerned I would slip and succumb to my inner urges I excused myself from the dance. Standing outside I danced in the moonlight releasing the emotions to the world. I trembled afterwards and knew that what had just happened opened me to a very special place. It was a secret place deep within me.
Hearing the music call me I returned hoping to be invited to the dance floor once again. It wasn’t long before the invitation arrived. Music reverberates through the room requesting I return to my secret place. Darting glances at the others on the floor, hoping to receive permission, I noticed the boy across from me was dancing with abandon. My body moves in response to him. Raw ancient excitement fills me granting permission to myself I spin and move to the music. Smiling we move in sync enjoying the communion. Together we return to my seat, ‘how did you learn to dance like that? You are fantastic. Could you teach me?’ breathlessly he asks. Amazed at his statement I begin to giggle a reply of my 2 weeks of lessons with my dad. He shakes his head, ‘well you are really good’, and wanders to the next chair.
Heading home I relinquish any doubt that this newly found desire can be squished back into the unknown. I have discovered that dance is me. It is a way to express myself, to connect to something I can feel but has no name, and allows me a connection to myself . Now the question is how can I get more?
Discover the wealth of adventure, the mystery of intrigue, the spontaneity of self, and the delight of laughter in dance. One can through dance find an inner connection to self.
Move it baby, move it! Don’t let anything delay you! Keep that rhythm, keep that soul! Take it deeper!